the silence in my heart will now speak.

the years coming to an end. i have so much running through my mind. this years been full of heartbreak, hatred, happiness, love, tears, peace, frustration, depression, joy, blah blah blah. but seriously though its been one heck of a fucking year. lost friends, gained friends. lost love, found love (ha, not so much).

for the way the year started and with all the bullshit that happened i am so proud of where i am in my life right now. i can’t even explain it. i been through a lot of shit. worse and hardest break up i’ll mosdef have to encounter but im glad I walked away from it and made the changes i made with the help of the people who DESERVE to be in my life, those who respect and appreciate all that i do for them.

ISMAELS: cousins, i love you guys with all my heart and more. i don’t know where i’d be without you guys. you all have kept me on my two feet at my lowest of lows. veejay, chelsea, and jesse i love love love how close we’ve gotten. it makes me happy that we are putting a smile on grandpas face. all the bullshit we’ve all been through happened for a fucking reason and thats for damn sure cuz we’re on top of the world my tall babies<3

REGULARS: i am blessed to have friends like you. after all the years lost between us and distance i have found my HOME again and my TRUE FRIENDS. i’ve had such a blast with all of you guys every fucking day. we make shit happen yO! ha. i cant wait to see what 2011 has in store for us. we’re gna tear shit up! :] 4’8 and a HALF all daay.

ADRIAN: babyko, you make me happy. ive never had a man treat me so good. its crazy cuz i honestly and truly never expected it to happen. i like where things are going so far and only God knows what the future holds for us. slow and steady baby. i only want whats best for us. thank you for everything you’ve done so far for me and my cousins. i really appreciate it. i cant wait to end the year and bring in 2011 with you! <3