the silence in my heart will now speak.

.. because this isn’t healthy at all. the past couple of days all i’ve done was hold these tears in and beat myself up for even thinking of you. this sucks you know? i’m so weak when it comes to you and i hate it. it’s taking so much for me not to call you or reply back to your messages. i was doing just fine until you tried getting a hold of me. i’m guessing you’ve been trying to call? too bad i changed my number and no one knows it. i don’t know anymore to be honest, i don’t know how i’m gna do this because strenght seems to be impossible in my life right now. my hearts never been so broken with all the times we’ve fought and all the times you’ve walked away from me.. i guess it just hurts more because i feel like i’m doing this alone and the fact that you chose her over me..

it makes me sad that we’ll never find peace with each other. i don’t know why it got this bad and i don’t know how i’m gna walk away from the 3 years we had. i miss you so much and i know all i should be doing is hating you for what you did to me but i can’t help it, i’m miserable..

oh well, none of this matters. it didn’t matter 3 years ago, its mosdef not gna matter now.